Why am I so needy right now?
I have not been a happy soul this last week. I am frustrated and …. well just frustrated. I resent having to do all the paperwork, (short pause while I pay the rent online, and transfer some money to the savings account) and budgeting. I resent that while there is plenty of discussion on the need to save for the end of the year, I am the only one actively doing anything about it. I resent being the only person who thinks about food, considers the nutrition requirements of the family, buys the food, prepares the food. I hate the statement “we should do …….” when really its “I want you to take care of ……”. I hate that everyone has their work/school and hobbies, and nobody has time for me, and I resent how whiny that statement sounds. I found myself wishing I had a best friend tonight. My sister is wonderful, but she has so much on her plate … she doesn’t need my emotions too.
I’m a bit lost. Unfulfilled with work, and after an intense period of everyone’s attention while I was sick, I now feel invisible, because I don’t need looking after.
Why am I so sad? I have no need to be.
