Why ????

Why can’t I be an only child?
and single?
with no kids?
and not prone to silly impulse actions?

It seems to me, without family, husband or children or my own silly nature…… I wouldn’t be worrying myself into the nice little puddle that I am currently finding myself in.

Family: Sister is pregnant, about to pop in the next few weeks, and while not starving on welfare, is certainly not doing things terribly comfortably. I am making nappies, and want desperately to help more, but there is only so far my dollars will stretch.
More family: Brother is about to have close to $1700 worth of dental work done, being paid for by me. I had thought that since he has left it a few months, he might have saved a portion of the cost, but it appears I will be footing the bill for the lot.
Husband: electric bike being built …… now there a money sucking hole of worry right there. Also planning a trip away.
Kids: son is coming down with a cold, and I am super worried that upcoming interstate trip is not wise, both for him, me travelling, and the people I am visiting.

and me: Stupid Stupid girl ……. in a fit of “make your sister happy” impetuousness ….. promise to fly up and visit for a couple of days.

I know hubby keeps saying it will be fine ……… but I am not coping, and I am getting kinda tired of being told I am silly for worrying.